Icarus's Redemption

I don’t know where I went

I don’t know where I am

There are too many colors

It’s driving me insane

I can feel all the past, ghosts, and ghouls

Spiraling around my head

I don’t wanna go yet

The shadows are settling

How am I losing control?

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I'm not in the house

I'm in someplace

Searching for nirvana

Maybe it was something in the water

I don't even remember

Yet it's near September

Because the leaves changed and..

Everything was falling

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I feel nostalgic

Something in the place sat right

Maybe I’ve been doing this all wrong

I keep waking up here with this same dark feeling

Having dreams that the light, the fire is burning out

I should be happy, safe, and free

Maybe I'm fixed with these clouds around me

Why am I breaking down still?

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These wounds aren’t healing

I’m still hearing all the lies

I keep digging but all I found is pain

This wasn't supposed to be erased?

In a place like this

I left it with my name and my body

No no, I'm ok, I'm here right?

Why I do stop when I just started believing?

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My pure white wings dissolving

My hands become dirty and colorful with paint

My sharp horns falling off

My alcohol filled teeth becoming dull and sober

My dark eyes becoming slow and still

My mind and thoughts finally disappearing

Guess I’m just human after all

When did I fall?

I looked up from this ash made house

the stars welcome me their rays of open arms

Strangely I feel at home once again.

Oddly I can feel the love, as another enters my space

Asking if I'm ok

She is bright, full of stars, and out of this world

just like how I was, once

I will be the sea, for am I too deep

hopefully, she can be my sky, showing me what the world is really like.