I Should Have Said It

When you were here

I took it for granted

I could study the intensity in your eyes

I could listen to the way you spoke

I could say what I held in my heart

But I didn’t

I let myself be distracted

and didn’t look into your eyes

I heard the confusion around me

and ignored what you were saying

I kept silent or spoke of shallow things

and never let you know what I was really thinking

And now you’re gone

And I can’t see you

Or listen to you

Or tell you . . .

. . . I should have said . . .

. . . I should have said

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I love you

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From the book my heart poured out by Jordan Aspen