I Need You (to Let Me Go)

You're like a drug

that I need to take;

Constantly I lie awake

thinking about you and I,

As I do this,

I can't help but wonder, "why"?

Why do I even care anymore?

When you stopped caring long ago,

Why can't I seem to let you go?

You took a part of me

that you can't give back,

That part of my heart

will always lack.

I have never felt

truly whole,

After you left with my heart

and a piece of my soul.

I cannot seem to completely

shake you from my mind;

Every time I think you're gone,

you come back just in time.

I know that you're no good for me,

but I know I'm good for you;

You were always building mountains out of mole hills,

when Goliath, I would slay for you.

You are such a bad addiction,

once you start, it can't be stopped;

I lost count on just how many

times that I've relapsed.

Three and a half months,

that's how long I had been clean;

Until that day I called you up

and told you about the "ring."

"He loves me and wants to marry me,"

I hesitantly said to you,

"But I don't know if I do, too,"

Because the truth is, I'm still in love with YOU!

I wanted you to fight for me!

And tell me how you've missed me so;

But instead, you acted almost happy,

Thinking that I wouldn't know.

I really don't understand

how you can be so black and white;

How can we be so in love one day,

and the next, turn off the light?

It really makes no sense to me,

but I suppose it does to you;

You're the drug you keep on taking

even though you know it's bad for you.

How much longer am I supposed to go

down this path-paved Hell?

Do I keep on holding onto nothing

until you remember that I fell?

I do not think I can keep holding

onto you like this,

I keep on reaching out for nothing,

You're a moving target that I miss.

Unfortunately Cupid

shot me one too many times;

You left, but you're still with me,

coming out in rhymes.

I need you, how I need you!

I'm still crazy about you, you know;

I need you, oh I need you,

I need you to let me go.