I Miss You Too

I hope we find each other again so we can have more time together than we did.

I said when we met, "I'm glad that I got to meet you", but I wasn't ready for the thought that I would never get to meet you again.

I think there's a hundred things that I need to do.

But, the thing is you're stuck in my head and all I can do is seem to think of you.

I probably need to go to bed or perhaps I should get some food.

But, the food you didn't get to have before you left is sitting next to me instead of you.

I kept a couple memories and I'm thankful for the nights that I get to dream of you.

In my dreams I wonder since you're gone are you happy and do you happen to remember the memory of me too.

When I see your picture I still get lost in your eyes and I tend to get those taunting butterflies that you always led me to.

But, I always break down and cry because I can only wonder why he wanted to put a stop to our lives and put an end to me and you.

I really do wish I could see you again at least maybe then I could mend your wounds.

Plus I wouldn't be damaged and embarrassed or so unnecessarily confused.

Because I'm living in a crippling misery again, stemming from a history of twisted memories that I've been through.

Twenty-seven years of pain has haunted me every day, but not before nine more as a child unable to smile, being lied to and given a hidden truth.

But, even when I was hurting at my worst you certainly removed the curse that I tried to hide but didn't do.

When you softly spoke you perfectly soothed my mood and you did it with a piece from the peace within you.

I miss you more everyday and I wonder if there was another way we could've chosen that we both didn't know we could do.

Because you know I wanted you, but now I'm crumbled in two from the memories remembering how much you needed me too.

You said it in a letter you left that kept a place in my heart next to the short time we had that was all dismantled too soon.

But, if you're gone forever then the life we never saw together sits along with all the letters I wrote that I never got to mail to you.

Tell me why God needed you keeping you as an angel of his, while leaving me lonely and totally unstable again.

As I'm wanting to know if the heavens will eventually spread with the wind and open up to hopefully let me meet you again.

I hate that it was so soon that we had to say goodbye.

I wish I knew the reason why so I could be with you and ease your mind.

I hate that we can't see each other anymore and we had no more than only a little time.

I hope you're ok and you're warm and safe where you place your head at night.

But, I'm grateful that I got to experience your life changing voice that left years of sadness in my heart behind.

I'm thankful everytime you had said, "hi", because just hearing you would remind me why I'm alive and that everything in my life was fine.

You're a gift in my soul that I will never forget or let go and I will forever hold until the end of time.

So when I meet you again I will be eagerly trying to put the same feeling of peace in your heart the way you easily did mine.

Maybe then we'll be by each others side and we can spend a few more nights as we're drifting in the sky that sits high above us.

My God, how hard we tried, but I'm sorry that I'm not alive, I wish I wouldn't have died, my love.