I'm waiting for you.

I can't hide secrets, nor can I hide sorrows, just as I can't hide the joy of loving you, nor can I hide the hesitation when parting. I'm just so calm. If you're willing to hurt, then hurt.

If one day you are going to leave me, I won't hold you back. I know you have your reasons. If one day we pass by each other, I will stop and gaze at your receding figure, telling myself that I once loved that person. Perhaps one can love many times in a lifetime, yet there is always someone who can make us smile the brightest, cry the most thoroughly and think the most deeply.

The cheerful smoke rose. I'll wait for you at the door. As the sun sets in the west, I'll wait for you by the mountain. The leaves have turned yellow. I'll wait for you under the tree. The drizzle is coming. I'll wait for you under the umbrella. The flowing water is frozen. I'll wait for you by the river. When life is tired, I'll wait for you in heaven. When we grow old, I'll wait for you in the next life. What can stay together until old age is not only love, but also responsibility and habit.

Everyone has a blind spot where they can't get out themselves and others can't break in. I keep my deepest secrets there. You don't understand me. I don't blame you. Everyone has a line of tears. Drinking the cold water and brewing it into hot tears, the most heart-wrenching grievances are gathered there. You don't understand me, and I don't blame you.

If you want something, just let it go. If it can come back to you, it will always belong to you. If it doesn't come back, it was never yours at all. If one day someone who can't come back disappears and someone who can't live without you leaves, it doesn't matter. Time will bring the most important people to your side. Before that, all you need to do is take good care of yourself.

No matter how hard life is, eventually you will find someone who makes you willing to stay by their side foolishly.

You can remain silent, regardless of my anxiety. You can not reply to my messages, disregarding my anxiety. You can describe my concern as the reason that makes you annoyed. You can throw my longing in the corner and ignore it. You can smile at others, you can give others hugs, you can be kind to the whole world, but forget that I have always been sad. You like me because I like you, and that is the only reason that makes me humble.

If in the end, the one by my side is not you, if after going through so many ups and downs and twists and turns, we still have to part ways in the end, if memories, promises and the determination to love each other once become insignificant and fragile in the face of reality, no matter what happens in the future or what the outcome is, we still wish to love passionately now.