I'm Still Holding On....

I'm still holding on...

Just passing the months by,

But I'm not moving,

I'm stuck somewhere,

Somewhere within the months of this year.

Which months? When I try to recall,

Not from the beginning,

But from the next month, February, yes,

I'm stuck in there,

Unexpected events began there.

I lost someone so dear,

Someone I always argued with, picking fights,

Yet, someone who always cared,

We had each other,

My one and only,

Someone who meant everything to me.

I've already lost that someone,

Without getting a chance to express my gratitude,

A lifelong regret I carry.

I'm still holding on...

Even though I'm trapped in that month, that time, that moment,

I've lost.

I can't let go, I don't want to

I'm still holding on...

As the months pass, now in October,

Soul-crushing events continue,

It makes me feel like I'm the reason,

Blaming my bad luck.

Though time has passed,

I'm still stuck...

When I attempt to channel my suffering, despair, and struggle into my writing,

Listening or traveling with my healing art,

It still hurts,

The songs resonate with my emotions...

♪ I'm still holding' on to everything that's dead and gone,

I don't wanna say goodbye, 'cause this one means forever.

And now you're in the stars, and six feet never felt so far,

Here I am alone, between the heavens and the embers.

Oh, it hurts so hard,

For a million different reasons,

You took the best of my heart,

And left the rest in pieces ♪

I'm still holding on to everyone who's dead and gone...."