I Lost You

I have to keep

The windows open

The doors open

My heart open

What if she

Climbs inside?

But if I kept

It closed to her…

And if I kept

Her close to me…

Would she have

Ever left at all?

And she’s running

From the cold

But she doesn’t

Remember where

To find my warmth

And because I cannot

Sleep at night

My warmth escapes

As well.

And I’m running

From emotion

Because to feel

Is a bit like dying

And I want so much

To feel because

What if without

Emotion she’s

Already dead to me?

And I’m running

And she’s running

But we’re not running

Towards each other

And every night

Spent without her

Is like I’ve lost

My brother

And I’m running

And he’s running

But he has two

Little holes

Inside his little

Heart, but I know

We’re running

Towards each other

And I’m running

Running for us both

Because the day

That I stop running

Is the day I lose

My mother.

And every day

I grieve and hope

that I don’t fall

Because the day

That I stop grieving

The day that I

Stop running

Is the day I forget

I had a heart

At all.