I so badly
Want to just get up and dance
To that upbeat song playing in my head
In the comfort of my own room
But the sorrow of losing you
Of leaving you
Looking at the unpacked boxes
That I brought back from your house
Isn't allowing me to get up and move
Ironically,
There you are
Packing for your next trip
Never pushing aside your enjoyment
Even in times of despair
While here I am
In isolation
But feeling even more cooped up
With my sorrows
I've never been one to enjoy
I don't really know how to do it
I'm staring at travel websites
Thinking if I can be brave
I am brave!
I have travelled the world alone
What's stopping me now?
The thought that I might regret
Not doing this with you.
But do you care?
No
You used to laugh at me when I danced silly
In the privacy of our own room
Maybe now I'm actually too scared to dance
Because you'll laugh at me again
And not a kind laugh it was
It was disgust
Was it always there?
Did I not see it before?
Are the feelings only rushing in now?
Masked as fear
As discipline and the need to work hard
But actually I don't dance
Because you never liked my goofyness?
Oh dear.
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Manisha Dhalani
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Comments (9)
Dance your heart away, do it for self. 🤍
soo pure, i love it
Wow! This is so well written and the emotion is palpable! Good job!
This is such a beautiful yet painful poem. Your way of expressing inner struggles through words is truly moving. So much emotion and raw feelings come through in this text. Often, the hardest part is realizing that we've lost a person and a part of ourselves in the process. Sometimes, sorrow teaches us just how strong we are.
If he did not appreciate your goofiness, there was no love on his side in the first place. Love is loving everything in the person. I loved your poem! You should definitely take a victory dance for it.
I am in awe of how easily you were able to put all that you were feeling into your writing, how you were able to contrast your sadness with his excitement. It makes us think, whether he’s also unhappy but trying to mask that unhappiness with his anticipation for adventure. Nevertheless, even though this was a free verse. It spoke wonders of how you can write such a finely crafted piece with passion, and it sounds like something written and edited several times to meet such a fine standard. I praise you for your bravery and for your talent.
What a touching poem! The loss and the difficulty to move on, is a part of our souls journey on earth. You touched my heart with the concept of dance which is intertwined with sadness and fear. Love,compassion, good heart...
Hindsight is very powerful. I'm glad you're noticing these things now. Do what makes you happy, gurl. Because if he's prioritising his happiness, then why shouldn't you?
Very beautifully written poem! Interesting