I held you - I miss you

I miss you, you know,

I have been grieving for far too long, I can not hold on to It any longer, how typical of me to say out loud, alone In a subliminal space,

I asked myself too often was I Invaluable to be held, enveloped by sorrow for this long was It over analysing, the ever progressing shedding of layers In Isolation of every narrow detail of the WHY, why did It take my mind so long to even begin to process how to heal, I really believed I had been healing, I turned to my faith to depth In pure, all the holistic practitioners, therapists , the healers, my shadow, my light, It was all Just a reflection of you.

the moments stolen from my present where my heart does not love similar now that you are no longer here, I am too young for the "you" to be many of "you", the "you" that left suddenly with so much light to give to the world, the "you" , the one who offered recycled patterns from your former neglect In the shadow of a cyclical tower of grief, you made me question my humanity, my value, my worth, was I enough to be loved or deserving to move forward, oh how guilty and ashamed I felt to live with the surrounds of absence of life.

Sow

Dear reader , Let us start over, let us start again ,Do

Come closer,

Please move forward, there Is so little life In the absence of presence of connection , there Is so little life without the love to triumph over grief, I know you want to be closer to the love In those you once felt enthralled with In your life, do not live In your past It repeats like anything else with time It becomes stale or absent. Only your present will breath new life, I will hold you briefly with these words, my words from the other side of the river of your journey, you are worthy to live In happiness, to express yourself unfolding, to be heard and seen for your Light not only your Grief, you may not be currently your best self, step outside, be somewhere new, meet new people as you have a WHOLE PRESENT LIFE , your future will change as you choose New. You will see your light shine, you'll see your brightness birth a new best self, that will bring a new world of love In your life, follow your heart's Intuition, Start new , It's almost never too late to start a new.

Reignite your Sparkle, I love myself now as I have loved "You" and as I will love the New, beautiful stunningly gloriously artistic yet flawed, I forgive myself for my grief, my past , please forgive yourself too.

Insight and wisdom endlessly active In emotion Is not the same fate as faith, so have faith and It will hold you far more dearly than ever these words.