I Find Myself On The Path To Nowhere...
Neither Here Nor There!

I find myself on the path to nowhere... neither here nor there!
I'm on this long drawn out journey
No final destination in sight
No direction
No clarity
In unknown territory
All the knowledge gained
All the lived experience in the past
Nothing can help me now
Not knowing what's to come
Do I go left
Do I go right
Standing still all through the day and night
Dreams turn to nightmares
Light turns into darkness
Smiles fade as tears emerge
I welcome the unknown but fear the known
And this... this feels like a prelude to a sad sonnet
Blessings sent from above
As I continue to hold on for dear life
Nothing seeming to go right
But I can't give up so I continue to fight
A soul exhausted
As my spirit slowly dies
My life a roller coaster
There's be more lows than highs
I take another short shallow breath
My mind filled with lies
Thoughts of despair as I try to hold back my cries
Cries of hopelessness
Fears of my own demise
The thoughts of uselessness try to creep in
They try to go under
Then begin to climb over the fence
Fast and unstoppable
The emotions flood in
Like rushing waters and rolling winds
I begin to laugh in disbelief
Who I was once
I am no more
Who am I becoming
No one truly knows
About the Creator
J.W. Baird
Who Am I?
I keep asking myself. I spent half of my life as a single mother. Pushing myself to be the strong independent individual that I have always been. My kids have grown and my life seems turned upside down.
I now search to find myself!



Comments (2)
We are all on a path most questionable these days. Glad you found laughter.
Beautiful 🌸