i dont have a title for this, except its a goodbye i never have the chance to give

"loving someone, is giving them the power to hurt you

but trusting them not to"

despite all my fences and guards

my iron clad walls

and all my defenses

i still believed maybe this last time wouldve been different

i guess i gave you one too many chances

how does it feel to fall

from such a high pedestal?

and honstly i need to ask you

what the fuck is wrong with you?

please let me know

because it shouldnt ever be this difficult

the definition of insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting a different outcome

i know im not perfect, i am the farthest thing from

but why would you come back to me just to have it all fall apart

you always miss the mark

do you get a kick out of being the one who does the hurt?

i know now it doesnt and didnt matter how much i adore you

everytime we do this little dance

it starts to feel like you're forced

even though youre the one who asked for my hand

i don’t even know what i liked about you anymore

all your immaturity and inability

to be a man

outshining all the redeemable qualities

and honestly i've had to stop and ask myself what is wrong with me?

i knew this wasnt gonna go the distance

so now the rose glasses are off and i can finally see you for who you are and always have been

beyond my perception

letting the delusion of it all go

feels like it shouldve happened so long ago

i dont have a title for this, except it is a goodbye

i never have the chance to give

it doesnt matter how hard i want to try

theres nothing to fix.

-g.m.t.