I Don't Know

I don't know

Still uncertain,

What are these,

Kind of,

Feelings.

Not clearly discovered,

How can I,

Describe my emotions?

It's aching,

Yet, no one hurt me physically.

Hurts sometimes,

Not always.

I'm not injured,

Feeling lost,

But I'm at home.

Missing people,

Oh yes,

I've lost so many.

Seeking peace,

Yet not in a crowd.

Want to be alone,

Yet, I'm not alone.

Feeling regrets,

Yet, I haven't made decisions.

Some decisions,

Want somebody to care for me,

Yet, I don't really want anyone.

Need to be alone,

Spend time with myself.

Mixed feelings,

I hate more,

Everything,

But,

I want to explore all,

Find new places,

New people,

Catch all trains,

Not just one right train.

I hate myself for these feelings,

But,

I love myself more.

My passion,

My dreams,

My world that I've created,

Or imagined for myself.

Traveling so far,

With these emotional tournaments,

Still,

I don't know...