I don't belong here, who feels me?
A lifetime of constantly feeling 'othered 'and born in the wrong body at the wrong time + now I'm owning my narrative, will you?
Born innocent
We are born love
To parents doing our best
But it doesn't seem that way at the time
I am thankful they chose to keep me at 18
They wanted to do better than their parents
Who also did their best
Many of us are healing from inter-generational trauma
We don't have enough time for me to list mine
Yet, I am proud
I am here
I survived
In a world where I never felt I belonged
My heart too pure
I lost myself to be a somebody
According to their rules
I lived among a sea of what the kids now call narcissists
I knew I didn't belong
But I played the game
Shape shifted
Used my gifts to become what friends and boys wanted me to be
What did I want?
Why was I so afraid to say no?
People I cared about weilding power over me
They knew I would cave
They knew they could control me
Through manipulation, bullying and threats
I forgive them though
I truly do
I see now how much pain they were in
Yet it was not right to vomit it all on me
Make me go down dark spirals
Constantly questioning myself
All I wanted was love
Without all the BS
I am wiser now
I am stronger now
I am softer now
I laid down my armor
I was righteously angry for so long
Pushing away the right people
Because I was used to the abuse
Making it harder for myself
Feeling like a victim
Blaming everyone and everything
I wasn't in my power
Thank you universe
For my lessons
For my timing
For creating me as oddly and amazing as you did
I have always believed in following my Soul
No matter how painful
No matter how lonely
This life of chasing status and having things was never for me
And yet I like them sometimes
And finally feel deserving of them too
Not less than and taking hand outs when I could
Naw I'm down with that
Thank you, next!
I am so glad trying to take my own life
To escape the pain
Didn't succeed
No matter how many times I tried
My heart has been shattered and broken
And yet it repairs itself anew
If you soften
If you look inside
I did the brave work
Of facing all of my inner demons
Now it's my time
To live life on my terms
To connect with the people
Who see me
Love me
For me and all my moods
I don't need a lot
And yet I have everything I need within me
I don't belong here
I am meant to create and shape The New Earth.
Are you here for a similar purpose?
I see you
Sensitive Loving Soul
Thank you.
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Karen Solie, the award-winning poet and TS Eliot Prize winner, has long been celebrated for her insightful exploration of human experience and contemporary life. Recently, she spoke about a feeling that pervades her work today: “a sense of things careening towards a head.” This statement captures both the urgency and tension present in her poetry, and offers a window into the mindset of one of today’s most influential literary voices. Solie’s reflections remind readers that poetry is not only about beauty or rhythm—it is a mirror for societal anxieties, personal contemplation, and the unpredictable nature of life. Who Is Karen Solie? Karen Solie is a Canadian poet whose work has won critical acclaim and numerous awards, including the prestigious TS Eliot Prize. Her poems are known for: Evocative language that paints vivid landscapes and emotions Reflection on social, political, and environmental issues Subtle commentary on the human condition Solie often blends observation with introspection, creating works that resonate with both emotion and intellect. Her poetry is widely studied and continues to influence a new generation of readers and writers. Understanding Her Statement The phrase “a sense of things careening towards a head” conveys tension, urgency, and anticipation. Solie explained that it reflects her perception of the world as both fragile and unpredictable. In her view: Events and emotions can escalate quickly, often beyond our control Social and environmental challenges add to a collective feeling of unease Poetry serves as a way to observe, interpret, and reflect on these accelerating moments In interviews, Solie emphasizes that this perspective is not doom and gloom—it is a call to pay attention, to witness, and to think critically about the paths we are on. Poetry as Reflection of the World Karen Solie’s work has long been praised for its connection to reality. Unlike purely abstract poetry, her writing often engages with: The natural environment, from forests to urban landscapes Societal shifts, such as economic pressure, political tension, and cultural change Personal experiences, weaving intimate reflection into larger contexts By describing life as “careening,” Solie acknowledges the chaotic yet patterned nature of existence. Her poetry encourages readers to pause, reflect, and notice the small and large forces shaping their lives. Examples from Her Work In many of Solie’s collections, the theme of mounting tension is apparent. Critics note how she: Explores moments of uncertainty, where seemingly small events lead to dramatic consequences Captures the fragility of human connections in a fast-paced world Uses language rhythm and structure to reflect the unpredictability she observes This stylistic approach aligns with her recent comment, giving her audience a direct lens into the psychological and social layers of her poetry. Why This Matters Today In a world filled with rapid change—whether political, environmental, or personal—the feeling of “things careening towards a head” resonates with many. 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She also noted: Poetry allows her to navigate uncertainty and organize thoughts Sharing work publicly is a way to connect with readers facing similar challenges The statement about careening is a reflection, not a prediction, offering insight rather than fear This approach has made her work especially relevant in today’s cultural climate, where readers are searching for clarity and emotional resonance. The Role of the TS Eliot Prize Winning the TS Eliot Prize has elevated Solie’s profile internationally. The prize: Recognizes outstanding poetry collections Brings attention to poets with distinct voices and perspectives Encourages global readers to engage with contemporary poetry For Solie, the recognition is significant, but she emphasizes that the work itself—the poems—remains central. The feeling she describes is inseparable from her creative practice, reminding audiences that great poetry often emerges from observing the world deeply. Takeaways for Readers and Writers Karen Solie’s reflection on “things careening towards a head” offers several lessons: Observe carefully – Pay attention to the details and patterns in life. Express honestly – Use language to articulate complex feelings and observations. Balance urgency with reflection – Recognize escalating situations, but maintain perspective. Engage with the world – Poetry is a tool for connecting personal insight with societal currents. For aspiring writers, Solie demonstrates that poetic voice thrives when it captures both the inner and outer worlds with clarity and empathy. Conclusion Karen Solie’s recent statement highlights a core truth of her work and life philosophy: the world is accelerating, moments of tension are inevitable, and poetry offers a lens through which to understand, reflect, and communicate these experiences. 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