I Cannot Help It

I tried hard to get over this anguish, but I really could not help it

I tried to accept you as a friend but the love I have for you is too true to forget

Though I died when you told me how much you love her

How you cry for her, how you long for her, how you could never live without her

Yet you never feel the pain of my dying soul

How each day I broke myself to support you, how I had to wish that you get her back, still hoping that someday you’ll choose me instead

Someday I’ll smile when you say you love her and wish you a happy life where I’m not with you

I am in constant fear of that day, for I will lose you forever

Until then I can keep hope in my heart

Sometimes I feel like I’ll never feel the same again

Sometimes I just want to watch the world burn so I do not have to live in this empty world where you cannot be mine