I am for me a surprise

must be within me

I don’t see outside

or maybe I never expressed It

enough to be alive

must be hiding in

I never observed it

all is insight

goodness rests within

while selfishness sells

at a good high price

there is then money

that buys your life

your most precious time

I am alive

I am alive

let me feel it

let me be in survive

how much I worship the other

how less I value myself

life must be unromantic

with me

I am for me a surprise

the hugeness of culture

leaves my ways

the biggest decay

of time

I am for me a surprise

for despite all

I continue to struggle

I survive

there is no where

happiness in complete

sorrows peep in daily

in good old ways

there is more struggle

there is less it seems

in the changing phase

I believe I have not changed

but change is permanent

from where I learn

my ways

give me life more

gift me life more

even if you throw it on me

I Will accept it

with lost pride

for its life

for its life

I am in surprise

about self

how much I want to survive

how much more

how much more

despite

despite

I wish to survive

I aim to be alive

suicide is no small sin

in my eyes

for I know the value of life

I have learnt it all being alive

how much I too want to survive

how much I love to be mine

in my own time

in that shinning lonely time

I not even with divine

but with self

realising self

from new heights

from new in heights

I for me is a surprise

I for me is

more than a simple

surprise