I Am But a Vessel

I am but a vessel, broken, and crying

Long gone are the days when I was thriving

In my eyes, in my heart, I have lost hope

All my yes’s gone, I’m only left with nope

You see, I wasn’t always like this

I used to be strong, until I was his

Now I just cry, and I’m filled with doubt

All the negativity, that has to come out

For the longest time, it built up in me

Left me drowning in shadows, until I could no longer see

So here I am, this empty shell

Feeling like I’ve been through hell

After years of ridicule and being put down

Each day grows harder, harder not to frown

I wish I could breathe and pull myself through

On a new path, one stronger, more true

One day I may make it, I might have a new life

But for now I’m just me, I’m no one’s wife

I’ll try, then I’ll try some more

No matter how bad I feel, I’m still glad I walked out that door

You see I am still that vessel, broken, and crying

But inside right now, I feel like I’m dying

I’ll give it one last shot, my last shred of hope

Before I become another statistic, when I can no longer cope