How Do I Tell You...?

How do I tell them I'm tired? Not in the sleeping type of tired, but the "I need to stop existing" type of tired.

How do I tell them I have no fight left? Because I have said that before and they didn't believe me and kept having me continue fighting.

How do I tell them I no longer want to take up space on this planet? But I have no plans on leaving, so my space stays where it is, even though I don't want it to.

How do I tell them that I love them? Because I do and it hurts to have a heart.

How do I tell them goodbye? I can't...I can't hurt them in the ways I have been hurt.

How can I even speak to them when my words just end up here...? I am losing them and myself simultaneously.

You're reading this because I can't tell you the hurt I feel. My words forever embedded, along with the pain I have endured. I need a hero more than ever, but we're not in fairytales.

How do I tell you that I need a friend?

I don't. And that's the end.