Home sweet Home

I live alone with a mental health issue of Borderline Personality Disorder.

Most of my life has consisted of suicidal tendencies and then acting on them impulsively.

I’ve never felt like I fitted in this world quite frankly and I dislike human beings. They are full of lies egotistical images of everything and I do not have them around me or interact with them physically. I love animals unconditionally.

Anyway a year ago I died and the ambulance crew brought me back to life and the hospital did where I was in critical care. A week passed I just got up got dressed left the hospital and came home.

Something was different I could see images and hear clear and distinct voices. I was very ill with it all and it was overwhelming as I didn’t know how to make the spiritual people go away.

I asked another medium for help and he didn’t reply. I asked another medium and she said they were from spirit and that was the hardest part and she went through chakras and closing those to them just imagine your face is covered by a blind they get fed up .

Take my hand and come with me,

I want to teach you about my ADHD.

I need you to know, I want to explain,

I have a very different brain.

Sights, sounds and thoughts collide.

What to do first? I can’t decide.

Please understand I'm not to blame,

I just can't process things the same.

Take my hand and walk with me,

Let me show you about my ADHD.

I try to behave, I want to be good,

But I sometimes forget to do as I should.

Walk with me and wear my shoes,

You'll see its not the way I'd choose.

I do know what I'm supposed to do,

But my brain is slow getting the message through.

Take my hand and talk with me,

I want to tell you about my ADHD.

I rarely think before I talk,

I often run when I should walk.

It's hard to get my school work done,

My thoughts are outside having fun.

I never know just where to start,

I think with my feelings and see with my heart.

Take my hand and stand by me,

I need you to know about my ADHD.

It's hard to explain but I want you to know,

I can't help letting my feelings show.

Sometimes I'm angry, jealous, or sad.

I feel overwhelmed, frustrated, and mad.

I can't concentrate and I lose all my stuff.

I try really hard but it's never enough.

Take my hand and learn with me,

We need to know more about ADHD.

I worry a lot about getting things wrong,

Everything I do takes twice as long.

Everyday is exhausting for me...

Looking through the fog of ADHD.

I'm often so misunderstood,

I would change in a heartbeat if I could.

Take my hand and listen to me,

I want to share a secret about my ADHD.

I want you to know there is more to me.

I'm not defined by it, you see.

I'm sensitive, kind and lots of fun.

I'm blamed for things I haven't done.

I'm the loyalist friend you'll ever know,

I just need a chance to let it show.

Take my hand and look at me,

Just forget about my ADHD.

I have real feelings just like you.

The love in my heart is just as true.

I may have a brain that can never rest,

But please understand I'm trying my best.

I want you to know, I need you to see,

I'm more than the label, I am still me.

Amen 🙏