HOLE

What happened to the days

When I could be

Unapologetically me

Liquid confidence and cocaine

Not afraid

Of anybody’s judgements

Numbing the pain

Now I’m sober and

I’m stuck with just myself

Can’t break free from the discomfort

Of being trapped in my own skin

Insecurities and inhibition

Flowing through me like

A toxic injection

But I’m healthy and

My shit’s in line

Why can’t I give

Credit where it’s deserved

Instead I focus on the

Road that lies ahead

Rather than

How far I’ve trudged

Uncertainty trembles with

Every word

So fucking awkward

And everyone heard

Obsess about it for

Hours on end

As if this cycle of thought

Can somehow change

The way things happened

I tell myself

That nothing could be worse

Than being slave

To a substance

But something’s gotta change

Someone, somewhere

Teach me how to be sane

Or I’ll pick up that shovel

And start digging again