Sometimes I wonder if I'm unlovable. Because no one ever has. Nobody has ever wanted to love me, talk to me all night long, feel my embrace and hold me in their palm. No one has ever made my heart burst with love, forcing tears out of my eyes. Nobody has wanted to give me the moon, not even the world. I see couples in public, their eye contact, embrace and more. That yearning feeling sits deep at the bottom of my stomach, it's been growing for a while. I grew up thinking I would've been in a relationship by now. Little me would be so dissapointed, I'm sorry. I just can't find anyone for me. Nobody is worth my time. I don't want to waste my life being with the wrong one, but that can't happen if I don't even try. I have in the past, but the flings led nowhere. They only wanted my mouth, my body. They made me feel gross, ashamed and scared. I don't know how I can get past those feelings. Maybe my person is out there but for now I'll be alone. Listening to music that increased my yearning, finding love in celebrities people in my head. At least I'm not getting hurt, right?
About the Creator
emily mya
Writing has always been an escape for me. Something I use as therapy. Reading other's words make me feel less alone and part of a community. That is why I write, so other's don't feel alone and know that someone feels the exact same.
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