Hiding

“It feels so good that you think of me once in a while.”

If you only knew

How frequently I do

And the filthy places

My mind goes to.

But it’s more than lust

Know that, you must

Your fragile heart

In my hands, you can trust.

Yes, I want you too

But fear, if you knew,

You’d hope for a future

That can’t come true.

Despite my outer display

I’m keeping desires at bay

Protecting us, both, because

You cannot stay.

Nor can I follow

A hard truth to swallow

But in sadness or regret

I’d rather not wallow.

Each day I fantasize

Of staring into your eyes

While you move inside

My heart occupied.

I’m afraid to reveal

And so I conceal

My lascivious thoughts

It’s for the best, I feel.

Terrified to say

I’d love to make hay

While the sun shines

And hope, and pray

When it’s time to part

Our hearts won’t smart

More than we can handle.

Previously published on Sensual: An Erotic Life