Hello darkness

A quiet dark room I lay here. You would think it’s quiet but no. My thoughts are out of control I feel like I’m loosing it all. I want to walk down to pier and just fall. Do I really want that? I can’t tell.

My mind is exploding with bombs I just simply don’t see coming. I have a headache make this stop please. I just can’t take the pain anymore…

Laying in this dark room I think what if I hurt him and it went way to deep? I just want to be there for him but instead I’m laying here in my bed when the lights are not even close to dim.. my heart pains wishing I can just go back to the past but I don’t think that’s a good idea because dear god who even knows if we’ll last?

I sit in this fear wishing he was next to me and we’re both shedding tears….. he’s hurt and is in confusion I just want to make it stop. But like I said I just want to drop….

The bombs are still going and everywhere I see smoke. My eyes begin to close and my heart just aches and aches…. Is there even something to take for this much pain….. My body starts sinking to the ground and with a thud I’m on the floor without a sound….. the pain is gone my body feels like it’s not there….

What is this place I’m in? Why the hell are the lights off? I’m in this darkness alone not a soul in sight. Hello is anyone there I shout with all my might. Someone please help I scream but no one hears me. Just my echoes. My body is chained to the ground I wonder if I die will I ever be found? In this dark place I stay so silent and in much pain…. There’s no use fighting there’s no use trying my pain is here to stay and with that I wish it was all a dream I can say…..