Head and Heart (Part 1)

Part 1

My aunt asked how I felt

She asked after I broke up with him

I thought about it and sat there

Stumbling

Struggling to put my heavy thoughts into words

My head told me to do it

My head also spoke against the idea

My heart

The part of me which hurt the most

It said my choice was right

But screamed in pain

In the unbridled anguish of grief

Of loneliness

Of hurt

She asked if I still felt my choice was right

If I regretted it

Would I go back

Would I

If I could go back

Would I change this action

If I could go forward with him again

Would I...

Heart says yes

I hurt him

I could help

I could fix this

Fix what

Fix the temporary pain

No

Heart says no

This was right

This choice was right

It would not be good to go back now

Cause more pain, deter healing

What would it fix

Nothing

Head says yes

He was good to me

He loved me

I loved him

We were happy

Head says yes

Head says no

We had our differences

Our difference in religion

In region

I would have hurt him later

Our arrows didn't line up

I was fooling myself that they did

Blindly hoping to see change

Seeing change when none was there

With my head pulling my heart

Heart pulling my head

What was I to do but pray