He’s leaving me again

He’s leaving me again

you’re going then again?

yeah I know

you don’t even have to say it

your coat’s already half on

your mind already gone

same suitcase

never zipped

just thrown together

like you always knew

you wouldn’t stay

same mutter about space

and how you need to breathe

as if this place

as if I have held you hostage

you don’t look at me

not really

just over me

like I’m part of the wallpaper now

just background

you used to kiss me at the door

now it’s keys

and footsteps

and the click of the latch

like punctuation

you’ll be back

I know

you’ll walk in

same old shrug

same old grin

like nothing ever happened

like my silence

was just background noise

our bond

your word not mine

you say it’s strong

I say it’s glue that dried wrong

too thick to melt

too set to fix

you keep leaving

I keep staying

maybe that’s the story

not love

just endurance

just habit

just two people

too tired to start again

go on then go

I’ll wash your mug

I’ll leave your side of the bed cold

I’ll fold the silence

back into the walls

and by sunday

you’ll be here

won’t you

same coat

same lie

same love

if that’s what we’re still calling it

See you Sunday dinners at 3pm