haunted home

I am haunted

Haunted by who I was

Haunted by who I want to become

Haunted by those I knew and those who knew me

My flesh is a burial ground

I carry with me the weight of relationships past and present

Like a coating of a spiders webbing

They cling to me

Water logged

Dripping

Shells of corpses drenched in perspiration and resentment

My body is a haunted home I must drag

Visiting those I have bid farewell yet linger still

Linger and linger and cling and clamp

Jaws clenched around my limbs

They will not leave

I mourn and grieve

Still they will not go

They will not leave me alone

I wish them to let me reside peacefully

I have laid to rest

The skeletons of my past

However they have made my home their prison

Their dwelling

They frolic behind the lids of my eyes

Traipse the rocky terrain of dreams

Poisoning with every touch

My psyche sinks heavy

I am a haunted home

A home haunted by myself

And others I allowed enter

Unlawful guests I plead

And beg

And plead

Bid me leave

Bid me leave

Please

Vacate my haunted home

I’m tired

Oh so tired

My leaden limbs roar with the dull ache of apathetic exhaustion

My blood has been drained

I am nothing but gray

A haunted home