Harmful

i’m in too deep now

the waters of introspection are pulling me away from shore

i’m too far out

i can’t turn back

there’s no coming back from this inner war i am fighting within myself

there’s no coming back from it

i got drafted already

my guns are loaded

i got all my armor on

i ain’t tryna’ get shot

never needed any help

i already asked for it

but never got it

stress got me livid

bills got me livid

school got me livid

i just wanna hide

don’t wanna come outside today

but i do anyway

i do many things

i don’t want to

but i do them anyway

i ain’t ready

it’s 4 in the morning

still ain’t got no sleep

it’s 4 in the morning

yet i find myself writing another book this damn early

i don’t wanna confront my alter ago

savage writer, leave me alone

get out of my head

i don’t want this anymore

i wanna be that kid that i once was

who enjoyed the world

who was curious to explore

loved everything about the world

now i abhor it

i’m feeling sick but i don’t have a fever or anything

i don’t wanna go home

momma don’t love me no more

i don’t wanna go home

momma don’t love me no more

i don’t wanna talk to girls

they hurt me too much

i don’t wanna talk to girls

they hurt me too much

i don’t wanna be an adult no more

i wanna be a child again

i don’t wanna be an adult no more

i wanna be a child again

i want my heart to flow freely

i don’t wanna condense any more emotions

i wanna be a child again