Half-Sister

Half-Sister

That is what you are, my half-sister,

No, I don’t even want to consider you that

because I remember when my boss called me in and told me about your ugly attitude

when she asked you who you are and you reluctantly said I was your sister

but I know it must have felt beyond painful to say it and you don’t deserve to say I’m family when you treated me horribly and

right now I am thinking of you and I won’t pretend, I can’t say that I wish you the best or that I have moved on

because I still want an apology, I still want your vulnerability,

I am wondering why it was so easy for you to spit out hurtful words at me,

right now I am looking at your mom’s facebook and seeing your face is disgusting,

It’s just frustrating that you’re acting all innocent, just because you are

talented and live with your boyfriend and have a good career it doesn’t mean you are flawless,

I’m very well aware that I’m not demonstrating maturity, but I don’t like pretending that I’m

immune to the pain you caused me, I’m still waiting for something that will never happen

and I’m imagining you feeling the same way I did when no one believed me;

I’m listening to Shakira’s new song and even though it’s a breakup song, some of her lyrics remind me of you,

I don’t want to be in the same room as you, and if the day come where the truth is revealed

don’t come into my inbox blaming me for being criticized for what you did and

I am now realizing that the difference between me and you is that even though I am afraid of judgment I never lie and instead of creating lies about someone I am hoping that you

come clean to them and let them know your honest feelings instead of coming up with stories for trying to get rid of them

and just because I am over the moon with my new family, I still have my moments where I ask what I did to deserve all of this, I am keeping quiet instead of reaching out to you

I am only wishing that my daughter never speaks to you because you do not have the right to claim her as your niece and the only Sofia she can talk to is my best friend. and