Growth

I haven't put

Pen to paper

In as long as

I haven't felt

Like myself

So lost for so long

Searching for who I am

When I've just been

Buried

Under the chaos

Under the gaslighting

Under the trauma

Breaking out of it

It feels amazing

Developing addictions

To run away

Although

I never understood

What exactly

I was running away from

Peel away my shell

Like a boiled egg

The layers are

BEAUTIFUL

Becoming who I was

Before everything

But different

Because of growth

Maturity

Experience

I am LOVING

The woman that

I am

No more hiding

No more escaping

Take me as I am

Because me

The real me

Is shining bright

And I swear to fuck

That this me

It's never going away

And my light will

NEVER

Be dimmed again

Growth

Although painful

And confusing

Is enlightening

In ways you could

Never imagine

I'm here for it

I'm living it

I'm fucking living proof of it.