Goodbye?

I look on an empty page…wondering what thoughts will prevail.

Wondering what I will say, what tell I will tail.

What secrets will I share, what of my heart I will reveal

What will I give freely, what will you try to steal?

My head the vault tells no tales, no stories, no truth,

I will not share my thoughts, my secrets, of my youth.

I will not speak my deepest, that is for me and my reflections.

The darkness I dare not share, the dark in light the heated injections.

Or is it infections?

No one dare go past my medulla oblongata, the thoughts at my core.

No one will beg me ask me, dare they stay away or ask for more.

I will not budge, or break or sigh, no lullaby will I try as time fleets by.

Will my thoughts deceive me or will they grow hot or cold then cry?

I am locked up, choked up, lost for words, alone in my brain for one.

I cannot share, I will not care, I will not. Saddened? But feelings I have none.

Because of you, tears not be blue, you’ll not see a one.

You won’t. After the river escapes without I have known.

Will you ever look on me again with eyes caring and admiration?

Will I ask another, will I abandon for more or less of perfect adoration?

My sadness darkness in my heart I never would have fathomed, or thought.

For me, my love, my life, my world, my heart, my me would you have fought?