Goodbye My love...

What started off with just a Birthday "Cupcake Sandwich" from that night,
Blossomed into the greatest time of my life..
Ever since then I knew you were The One & that all the wrongs in my life were spontaneously made right,
So instantly I knew in my heart without a doubt that I wanted to make you my wife..

You were my answer to all of my Unanswered Questions,
But more importantly you were the one that could calm this Heartless Monster.
Other than my kids, having you was definitely the greatest blessing so naturally we decided to have one of our own without hesitation,
But as time went on I changed into something that became almost sinister..

I hurt you in a way that I simply can't undo,
Because that part of me that frightens everyone made its self known.
But I saw that pain & it truly caused me harm too,
I can't find a way to forgive myself for all the pain I've caused so I accept the consequence of being alone..

As the Hands Of Time draw closer to the end,
I can't help but feel broken.
What was once a Sweet Dream that not even the Sister's Of Fate could not bend,
Turned into my worst Nightmare that I can't escape even after I've awoken..

What do you do when you lose your Soulmate?
The only thing that God as personally made just for you...
I couldn't even fathom have much it would hurt me to let you go especially knowing that I was too late,
But in my heart I know it was never suppose to be this way that's why when I say "I love you" it remains true...

Now that times have changed & you simply aren't here,
I still hold onto all that you have given me over the time we shared.
Somehow things never gotten any easier without you so I always keep a picture of you on my wall or in my wallet just so I can pretend that you are at least near,
No one knows this but It's the only thing that keeps me sane as it reminds me of that love you gave me as I face my demise that leaves me paranoid & scared..

"You truly are different in every way",
That's all I can think while the tears fill my eyes as I continue to write this.
This isn't even close to all that I feel because you know I have a lot to say,
But now I must remain silent as these words just become Hit & Miss..

I know you probably won't ever read this so I'll just leave this here,
I can only pray that someday that I can have you again & show you more..
But I know it's in God's hands now so I'll just find a way to adhere,
I just hope you know that regardless of everything; I will always love you until the end of time so with this I say Goodbye My Love, as my love for you is no more...