GOODBYE LETTER

Im saying goodbye to You. My self-respect can no longer take the sh*t that you put me through. My heart is scattered in so many peaces, there is nothing more left to break. My chest feels so heavy, I can't even get out of the bed no more. When You couldn't find time to talk to me, I started hurting myself… Yeah, imagine how crazy I was, hurting myself over some guy. But what else can a hurt girl do?

I'm trying to drown our love with wine. Oh, I'm sorry, I'm trying to drown MY love for You. After some months it got worse, whiskey and tequila where the only savior that I had. So tell me, who the f*ck are You to make a pretty girl like me go insane?

And still, I'm waiting for You to text me. I'm still waiting for You to call me, ask me to go out. I'm still waiting for You to love me. But I know, it will never be a reality for me to enjoy.

I remember when I first saw You, I was so broken at that time. My hopes for a true love vanished years ago. But Your eyes made me relive my naive and foolish dreams again. The worst part is, I died so many times, I'm starting to forget that night, that night when I first saw you. I am starting to forget the things we talked about, and places we visited, I even forgot who said “hey” first.

I fell in love for the first time. For the first time, I wanted a man like You to hold me and never let me go. I understand now why they describe this as “ falling in love”, I did hit the ground and it killed me this time. This time it hurts so bad, I have to bite myself when there’s nothing sharp for me to take.

So I’m saying goodbye to You, my feelings and my love. If I’ll let You stab me at least one more time again, it will actually be the end of me. The highest priority is to forget You, and get back to the life I had before all of this sh*t. I was happier before you, I was happier when I was away from you.

Let me live. Let me have my peace. I want to breathe again. I want to enjoy sunsets again. I want to live, again.

Good bye.

Forgotten lover.

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