Gold Within Me

I felt like I lost my voice

Every time I spoke my voice got hoarse

Every time I attempted to open new doors they shut

I convince myself to stop from succeeding with every thought of all the possible but's

Anxiety wont let me believe in my mind

I feel like my own brain is never on my side

I know I'm in here somewhere...

But I'm too scared of exposing myself bare

I'm too struck by fear to really listen to myself and feel

Too blinded by the fact that I need to heal

My anxiety doesn't want me to know that my mind is not the enemy

This gray in my mind I got lost in is not who I want to be

My Gold shines out and cries

In this race I try to stay steady and ignore my mental lies

Most days I feel like anxiety will never let go of me

But, I owe it to myself to fight for the gold within me

I have to grab that Gold

And yank it out of me because no one else will, I must be bold

It's up to me to soak in new colors that represent me

And fight daily to break free of the anxiousness within me

Allow myself to fail and win

And be okay will all the scary consequences