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The first page of my old notebook

It was nothing but a feeling that crept into my sick heart

It saddened me greatly

And I became sinful with my affliction

I became in it as if I had been since barren ages

And when my illness visited me, I became an orphan

So my old love came to me, for this longing is painful

Do not hide your ghost and leave behind me a shattered feeling

For I alone suffer from destruction

And no one is with me to turn my bones into dust

Except a Lord who was kind and merciful with me

And I walked in the darkness of the dark night

Alone searching for the pulse of my healthy heart

To renew my covenant and make me like a close friend

So do not let tragedies kill me if my estrangement calls me

And the sadness that was inside me intensifies?

I will fight with myself every pain that stabbed me in the heart

And I will walk in his guidance, his path is always straight

The first page of my old notebook

It made me erase every regret that became repressed in my soul

As if I was with him on my path, a lonely monster

It made me become without a homeland, as if I were the cursed devil