Friendship & a Fix

I play it off,

Everytime I caught on to a cue,

of, its me, not you,

I can tell when I am not wanted,

At least in the way I desire to be wanted,

I can tell,

That I am not your chosen spell,

The way you passed me on to other guys,

The way you danced around your words without spilling lies,

I had to convince you of the possiblity,

When it was so easy to see,

There was nothing I could do,

I was the back paged article on the news,

I could tell by you not being forward,

I could tell by all the lines that remained blurred,

I could tell by the pauses behind the affirmations,

And the shakey plans that almost never coordianted,

But when we were together,

We seemed to make sense to each other,

That I saw the tiniest potential of something,

Where you saw a temporary fling,

I know you had the best intentions,

That it had nothing to do with our friendship,

You just lacked interest,

And you confirmed what I knew to be true,

But it still made me sad, hearing it from you,

I didnt want to believe the connection didnt feel the same,

That our lips that locked weren't desired in a similar way,

I didnt want to believe that there was nothing beyond,

Then simple fact, that we got along,

None of this would have changed our outcome,

I dont even feel like I've been dumb,

Because I knew,

I knew, you,

And I could feel the distance in it,

Before you could even find the words that fit,

And though it hurts my pride,

That I was second to your eye,

No tears were cried,

Because at the end of it,

We both benefited,

With and friendship and a fix.

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