Forgive me, Father

Note from me:

Before you start reading, I would like to disclose that this "song" is purely fictional, and has dark undertones. It can be triggering for some.

You see, I am blessed and/or cursed with nightmares and dreams every night. Call Me Ms. G! is one of the songs that play in my nightmares. And it is followed by Forgive me, Father.

Unfortunately, I cannot remember the melody during my waking hours. All I remember was that the genre would most likely fall under Gothic Rock.

Anyway, in my manic state, I got up at 3 am every day to write down the lyrics!

Would you believe me when I say that it's a whole album?

In my nightmares, I remember perusing through "the variant" of Spotify. Then there I saw the album called Holier than thou - The Nightmare Melodies.

Well, here's the second song in that album! Enjoy :)

P.S. the album logo is almost identical to my book cover House of Trials - Soul Exchange

Forgive me, Father

I tried my best

Did what you told me to do

But it wasn't enough

It never was enough

You were my idol

Even on days when alcohol would take you away

Even on days you'd put me through hell

But that wasn't enough

It never was enough

As I lie in my hospital bed

I think about all the things you do

All I just wanted was to be like you

Maybe you'd love me then

But I often wonder if that would be enough

Forgive me, Father

We went to church

And sang praises to God

I love those times

Because you felt safe

But behind closed doors

The alcohol would take you away

Daddy, please stop

If I let you, would that be enough?

As I lie in my hospital bed

I think about all the things that you do

All I just wanted was to be like you

Maybe you'd love me then

Maybe you'd stop hurting me then

But I often wonder if that would be enough

Forgive me, Father

Blessed are the meek

For they shall inherit Earth

You often taught me

To silence me

Whenever I scream why can't you love me

As I die in my hospital bed

I thought about the things that you did

No one should be like you

I was never like you

Forgive me, Father

Mommy come to take me away

Maybe you'd love me then

Maybe you'd stop hurting me then

Forgive me, Father

But I often wonder if that would be enough

Because it never was enough

Forgive me, Father

I often wonder if that would be enough

Because it never was enough

It never would be enough

It wasn't enough

Anyway, I usually create darker content whether it is art, video shorts, or stories. If this is something that you also enjoy, let's be friends :)

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