For When Your Heart Is Hurting

Hi there!

I can’t promise to give you the best of advice there is but I would like to share my story with you.

I can’t say we went through the exact same things but I pray that this helps you.

“Once upon a time, my heart was hurt.

I would never have understood this statement till I experienced it.

It bled on a daily basis,

Continuously for about a month or more.

I lost my all, just when I started to fully recognize how much he meant to me;

It came just when I had expected better days ahead

I lost my consciousness during that month

I myself was lost in that month

It seemed impossible to be me again

My heart was ripped in two

It would have been better if it were slowly chipped and then cracked

But no! It was ripped apart brutally!

All hope was lost!

In my moments of quietness and searching

I found myself in front of a door

Looked like no one really used that door

I thought to myself “what else do I have to lose”

I opened the door.

There was something in that room

Someone in that room

He was a familiar face, maybe too familiar

You know, those people you meet every day and pass by cos you know you’ll meet them again the next time you came around

He pulled a chair and told me to sit down

He started a conversation but all I could see was his lips moving

There was a heaviness in my heart so loud that it drowned out all he said

I couldn’t hear his voice

Then all of a sudden he stopped talking

Then he grabbed me in his arms

He held me close to is heart, like he was never going to let go

I felt something strange. But I still had a heavy, noisy heart

I struggled to hear his words but then I heard him say

“Let go honey, let go. I am holding you, let go”

“That was too much to ask “, I thought

“How can I let go of the memories of the one I love? That’s all God left me with. He stole my joy. He stole my heart!”

Then I began to weep all over again

It felt like I had nothing left of me

In my tears I decided to let go of my past,

I decided to hold on to this man

For I felt safe in His arms

Despite my worries I was better in His arms

Then I began to hear his voice

His voice was soothing

This man said to me,

“I love you child, I love you.

Even before I made this earth I loved you.

I know you are hurt right now but I need you to trust me on this one.

I have a plan for your life.

I love him too. I love him way more than you do and I am taking care of him.

I have a plan for him as well. Trust me!

My love never fails.

My thoughts for you outnumber all the grains of sand.

Rest in my love, child. I love you”

He held me in his arms and I felt His love.

His love is comforting

It is indescribable

Till now I can’t understand it

I’m still in His arms

I’m still resting in his love.

His never failing love.

All you need to do is to ask Him to reveal it to you

And once He does, rest in it

Let go of your past and just rest in His love

Trust in Him, He loves you!”