For J______

I’ll stop now that we cannot be ...

Or so it seems to me.

I’ve tried my best in every way

To keep you close to me.

I’ve tried to stay strong, hopeful still ,

That there would come a day

When you would say you love me still

And that we’d be okay.

I cannot seem to wrap my head

Around the simple fact

That what we had has disappeared

And I don’t know how to act.

I don’t know if you will return

Or come back home to me

But all I want is your happiness

And for you to be free.

I love you still and always will

For you’re my first real love

I cherish every breath you take

And thank the gods above .

For if I had not met you ,

I never would have known

How dear to me love could be .

How nice to call my own .

But now I cannot help you

And it breaks my heart to say ...

I don’t want us to finally end

And I wish we’d find a way.

But I can’t fight for both of us

And that’s what I have done

I wish things were the way they were

When we both had first begun.

I wish you’d call me on the phone

Just to hear my voice

Or torment me and keep me up

With texting me by choice.

So now I fear my must move on

And give up on us now

For I am blind and cannot see

Any where or how.

I don’t know what more I can do

To help keep you by me

So I will do the one kind thing

And finally set you free.

You deserve what I tried to give

And maybe someday soon

You’ll miss the girl who stood by you

And handed you the moon.

Perhaps one day you’ll come to find

You wish we two could be

And on that day you’ll reach out

And maybe contact me.

I wish with every ounce of might

That things were different here

And that you’d take me in your arms

And that I’d forget these tears.