feels like drowning

it feels like drowning in an ocean,

emotions swirling all around,

so lost and hurt and helpless,

villainized and outcast,

nothing wants to be a victim,

crying and reaching out,

desperate for a friend,

the world is mad about it,

cause it disturbs their peace,

a safety net that was never given,

and when someone reaches out,

its only to push it under,

so they don't have to hear,

when it says how sad it is,

and it doesn't understand,

why all the lifelines given,

they feel more like razor wire,

and when it bleeds and feels pain,

they all say stop complaining,

that ungrateful P-o-S,

and that it's the problem,

no one cares about the trauma,

it's just the way that this world is,

it'll grab hold if it wants to live,

and if it wants to cry about it,

they'll really give it a reason,

living like that is painful,

it wonders what it's done wrong,

what it's done to deserve all that,

but nobody's listening,

and when it asks nobody tells,

now the sharks are circling,

they smell blood in the water,

and they all say it isn't real,

it's just in the imagination,

there are no sharks here,

there haven't been for years,

but nobody takes the time to see,

that this is its reality,

shipwrecked and out to sea,

just wanting solid ground,

had to teach itself to swim,

alone from the beginning,

the mother says she knows,

that she failed as a parent,

but it's to late for saving,

she sets sail full steam ahead,

she moves on and lets it drown,

but first she chums the water,

and the sharks begin to frenzy,

eat what should've been aborted,

nobody has to know about it,

and I am finally at peace