Feeling Not Good Enough

When nothing is significant - yet.

When the world is not your

Applauding stage.

When there are projects being

Marinated, but the seeds have not yet

Sprouted, and there has barely been

Any rain. A drought, of luck, of

Good fortune and that thrill

To be appreciated, adored, liked

And followed, subscribed.

To be a multi-millionaire,

Overnight -

If it’s possible

To see such earnings

To have that abundance

The energies of endless monies.

That motherlode the Universe

Has been promising would

Soon and fairly arrive.

…

To know that this causation

Your words, your Spirit,

Your mind

In all its authentic creativity

Will somehow be accepted,

It will hit a nerve with others

Yearning and waiting for the

Truth to be reflected

Right back at them.

…

Who are the lucky ones?

Who are the caged?

With all the highs, there soon, too

Will be lows. A balance of

Some sort, a Shadow within the

Light.

With all the many hours of

Success and applause, there too,

Must be, equally -

Hours of darkness, depression,

A feeling of being low. Not good

Enough, not attractive enough.

Not enough. To be so low

To know how to come back

Up. To sustain from the pain.

To carry others on our backs

So that they too, can know and learn

How to thrive in the midst

Of the uncaring, unjust, undeserving.

…

Comparing and contrasting

It will only bring more misery.

Analyse and evaluate for success

For an other, a differentiation.

Point of difference.

We are “not like them” - we’re better.

Somehow, in some way. Just to

Feel good enough.