Father's post

I'm sad lately, the only family I can think of is you

But you were in the deep soil, we buried you together that year

I regret it. Now

Maybe you've tried many ways and want to come back to life

If you choose plants, you will be able to be more than half of yourself

But the grass on your tomb, the tall ones were all mowed by the fools in the village

I just walked by the field, and every year the crops are harvested by my brother

He said you weren't in it either.

If, you choose insects, I don't know

Which insect name would you like

At that time, a seven-star ladybug flew into the house, and you would immediately catch it and show it to me

Right in the palm of your hand, there are black spots on the red body.

Now I hold one in my left hand, which looks like the one from many years ago.

The index finger of my right hand is about to touch the foraging ant lightly, it is so thin

I searched for its bones over and over, and all of a sudden I came across yours.

Can't get skinny anymore, those bones. messed up. scattered.

For eleven years, I was a fatherless child, but I imagined

There are many shapes in which the bones are arranged. i.e. your look

Forgive me, father.

Maybe it's the ant and its accomplices

Moved them, changed the original you

Every time I came to see you before, my mother said not to put food in front of your grave

Afraid of attracting insects. Maybe that's the reason.

Afraid that they will eat the food I leave you

Smell the breath and find you below.

But I never listen to her every time, maybe I really will

hurt you, my poor father

I haven't had a good year this year, so I miss you more than ever.

Sometimes I wake up crying at night and open my eyes to see

The moonlight on the curtain, if you are the light, come flying

You can go to heaven (I wish)

I can also go back to the world (I'm waiting for it)

Don't go where light can't penetrate

such as underground. I will never again rely on the power of the earth,

separate us.

by: Li Li