Ex It

My heart aches for the illusion you built

Of sugarbush, ricing, mino bimaadiziwin

How could I not recognize the spark of your gaslit eyes

Moonlight through the sunroof twinkling brilliantly

White flames burning brightly to warm insides

I tell myself it me reflecting back love

It's been so long since I fell under your smell

Electric fingers welding trauma bond

Trusting your clan to teach me love

When your true spirit was a thief

Stolen selfish ecstasy unable to return

Swimming in polluted waters toxic conditional lives

Standing alone next to the ghost of you

My best smile on hiding the truth

Of how you keep me emotionally crashing

Never heeding my warning

And now you cower from the truth by crying victim

Trying to growl louder than my supporters

I never intended on uncover the real you,

I mourn the magician creating other worlds

Who could move galaxies before my eyes

And Sawyer rules at cribbage always stalling

Bacon grease kisses dancing in the kitchen

Addiction rules that body before me

Replaced him with emptiness misery pain

No remorse respect or empathy actions

Destroying that last dash of hope I had

To be loved and treasured as I dreamed

And finally have that comfort of family I deserve