Everybody Dies in October

Lyrics Written by October Rain Evans

(music coming soon)

Deaf Grrrl Music/Trans Soul Rebel Lyrics/sadistsateme.songwriting [ASCAP]

© 2020 October Evans, Chiaroscuro Music Studios. All Rights Reserved.

[Verse 1]:

The days turn into cold nights

Not okay in my post traumatic state of mind

The dead memories are all that’s left of them tonight

Occasional reminders of being alone as life passes me by

[Chorus]:

I guess everybody dies in October

No way for me to get through this sober

The grief and loss is on repeat from now to forever

I guess everybody dies in October

Wondering where they’ve gone away to as I grow older

The hole in my soul is the aftermath of those I remember

Everybody dies in October

Everybody dies in October

[Verse 2]:

The love of my life and my daughter is gone

All the friends I’ve lost in tragedies gone wrong

I stand here missing my grandmother

I hope it doesn’t rain forever as I try to pull myself together

[Chorus]

[Bridge]:

Time goes on, feeling though as if hope is gone

Rather be anywhere but here - where did I go wrong?

My face’s turning old and hair’s turning grey

Going beyond my years, wasting half my life in disarray

Why does everybody die in October?

Why does everybody say goodbye on our last days together?

I feel like I don’t belong anywhere without them with all the shit I’m going through

If you’re out there somewhere, I hope you know this is for you

As I keep holding on and rising above all the shit life’s thrown at me

I keep waking up every morning hoping that I will finally breathe

I miss all of you - GONE FOREVER

I love all of you - FORGOTTEN NEVER

And most of all, I forgive you - thank you for our infinite forevers in a limited amount of days

So I weep once again another year older, move on trying to be okay

And now I stand before you all tonight…

An annual reminder to let you know I’m still healing before I can finally say goodbye…

Until then… I have to ask this question:

WHY DOES EVERYBODY DIE IN OCTOBER??!!??!!

[Chorus - Altered]:

Even though everybody dies in October

I’ll find a way to get through this sober

Imperfectly human but it’ll get better

Even though everybody dies in October

I will keep healing as I grow older

The hole in my soul will be filled as I sew myself back together

Not everybody will die in October

Not everybody will die in October

Because I know I’m not cursed

And I’ll find a way to live with the hurt

I promise you, you’ll see me smile again

In the meantime, I’ll keep healing until then.

[ENDS]