Eight Months

eight months

that's how long it took

eight months

of me screaming

crying

cursing at the world

blaming myself

eight months

of me

heartbroken

and trying to figure out

what the hell I could do

to bring you back

eight months

of me

screaming

crying

cursing at the world

eight months

of me

blaming myself

for your mistakes

eight months

of me

telling myself that

what you did

wasn't because of

me

"it's not because

of you,

I just had to do this

for myself and

nobody else"

of course I wouldn't

believe your words

no matter how many

times a person

would tell it to me

eight months

of me

screaming

crying

cursing out at the world

eight months

of me

blaming myself

for your mistakes

eight months

that's how long it took

for you to finally

pick up the damn phone

and say hi to your own

daughter