Egotistical dreams

What do you see?

I'm Glaring in this mirror

Trying to mimic My reflection

With a pencil & a brush

I'll modify my perfect imperfections

To create my transitional transgression

From who I really am

to who I want to be

Crazy how this glass

Claims to show me

What other people perceive ...

What do you see?

A dab of foundation

To Cover up where I started

Ill paint the brown weeds

that wither in the cracks of my lips

With a tube of the sweetest tones of sherbet lipstick

To show you the grass IS greener on the other side

And even when I sit in darkness

The color in my blush can

Give a depiction of the sun rise..ing

Against the horizon...

Of my cheek bones

That gives you a taste of my strength

With each smile I fake

What do you see ?

I really want to know,

I'm looking in this mirror

While I'm playing up an illusion,

Of what I want you to see..

But what do you see?

A confident aloof of a job well done

A strong woman who stands still

But really wants to run

What do you see ?

Is this mascara

Revealing the black lines

That flow down my cheeks

And into the river of what use to be?

What do you see ?

A woman who works two jobs

Runs her own business

Is in school

And is a bit egotistic?

Yes I stop to glance at my self

A constant reminder that ,

that girl that was doing bad

Is a ohhhhweee badd mamma jamma

What do you see?

Maybe I'm transparent

To the present

Can you see my past?

A little girl in a shelter

Trying to make her last, last

The smell of cardboard boxes

Is home ...

Pack up. Unpack.

What do you see ?

Is it the pride in my eyes

The crack in my voice

The pep in my walk

That reveals me?

What do you see ?

Because when I glance in this mirror

I'm blinded to the idea of me

You see

I believe the strongest image you can capture

Are the ones imprinted in your memories

So I pray that the day you really see me

Is the day of the forgotten

When you remember

I am more than what you see

The day I'm under

The day my soul is released

Is day the that will finally reveal

What I made you feel in this world

the beautiful glory in the glow

In flashbacks Of what you remembered to see