Done Setting Myself On Fire

I’ve found self immolation only leads me to this place

exhausting all attempts to keep everyone happy

Evolving swiftly into the stage of decay

surrendering to life’s hyperbole

The joke is on me though, as I choke through the guttering

the flames flicker, gasping for its next breath

The ashes are stirred making the embers start sputtering

slowly preparing itself for death

Snuffed out by life and its callousness

a diminished baptism by fire

An internal reflection of my soul’s incandescence

Dying out without the effort to survive

Extinguished and peacefully floating in water

with only a slight memory of smolder

Nevertheless heaven, for the fire walker

Whose desire is to just feel warmer

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A/N

The term for when a flame is about dead, or in its final stages, is the decay stage.

Other words used to describe a dying flame in a general sense include:

Guttering: A flickering, dying flame can be described as "guttering".

Dying out: This common phrase refers to the flame diminishing and eventually going out.

Snuffed (out): This term implies the flame was extinguished, either intentionally or by an external force.

Exhausted: The fire or flame has "run out" of fuel.

Immolation: A general term for death by burning or extreme heat.

Burning at the stake: An execution method where a person is tied to a stake and a fire is lit around them.

Self-immolation: The act of setting oneself on fire as a form of protest or suicide.

Fire baptism: A practice where self-immolation was used as a form of religious protest, as in the case of some Old Believers.