Do I Do This, Or Don't I?

I'm stuck in the middle of this road,

As they wind and bend,

I don't know which corner to take,

Do I heal this friendship?

Or do I leave it?

It seems the more I try,

It's always a case of

"Hello," then "Goodbye,"

The shadows dancing on the wall

twist and bend,

They are stuck here, too,

It's like they are dancing in the rain,

Where my feet remain glued;

Should I move forward?

Should I go backwards?

I'm caught in the middle;

These emotions are crazy,

The candle flames dance higher,

They twist and bend,

They can read my thoughts,

Should I?

Shouldn't I?

You tell me;

We were close for many years,

You disappeared,

Now;

You come back,

After decades have passed,

Talking to me as if you never left,

Acting as if nothing happened,

It's obvious you still want my friendship,

But,

I get the feeling you're not going to stick around,

Yes;

Maybe for a few years,

Then you'll disappear again,

Leaving me at the crossroads,

Caught in the middle of this emotional

turmoil,

The question is;

Do I do this?

or;

Don't I?

If I don't, will I regret leaving you behind?

Maybe I will,

Maybe I won't,

Our friendship was valuable, close,

Strong for many years,

We were solid,

Unseparable,

Until you kept running away,

Putting a distance longer than this road in my mind

between us,

Tonight;

Watching the shadows dance,

I'm stuck in the middle of this road,

I don't think I can let go of you completely,

Even though I should,

I'm not sure I want to,

Since I spent all of these years trying to find you;

You have left me stuck in limbo,

With decisions that are too difficult to make,

You won't come out of work to talk it through,

And you won't see me unless you're at work,

Though you still care,

That was obvious from the way you stared at me when I

entered your workplace,

And on leaving,

Nothing since then;

You show all of these feelings,

Show that you care,

Still;

You pretend I'm not there,

You know how I feel,

You know I couldn't

turn my back on you,

Yet;

You still play with my feelings like I am a toy,

The night falls once more;

And here I am still stuck at these crossroads,

With a long road behind me,

And a long road in front of me,

The questions have now become;

Where do I turn?

Do I walk away?

Unable to decide,

My feet remain glued.



Should I move forward?

Should I go backwards?



I'm caught in the middle;

These emotional feelings are crazy,



The candle flames dance higher,

They twist and bend,

As if they can read my thoughts,



Should I?

Shouldn't I?

Do I?

Don't I?

You tell me;

We were close for many years,

You disappeared,

Now;

You come back,

After decades have passed,

Talking to me as if you never left,

Acting as if nothing happened,



It's obvious you still want my friendship,

But,

I get the feeling you're not going to stick around,

Yes;

Maybe for a few years,

Then you'll disappear again,

Leaving me at the crossroads,

Caught in the middle of this emotional

turmoil,



The question is repeated in my mind as I

stand here, in between thoughts,

Do I do this?

or;

Don't I?

If I don't, will I regret leaving you behind?

Maybe I will,

Maybe I won't,

How am I supposed to know if you won't help me?

Our friendship was valuable, close,

And strong for many years,

We were solid,

Unseparable,

Until you kept running away,

Putting a distance longer than this road in my mind,

Between us,



Tonight;

Watching the shadows dance,

I'm still stuck in the middle of this road,

I don't think I can let go of you completely,

Even though I should,

I'm not sure I want to,

Since I spent all of these years trying to find you;



You have left me stuck in limbo,

With decisions that are too difficult to make,

You won't come out of work to talk it through,

And you won't see me unless you're at work,

Though you still care,

That was obvious from the way you stared at me when I

entered your workplace,

And on leaving,



Nothing since then;

You show all of these feelings,

Show that you care,

Still;

You pretend I'm not there,

You know how I feel, and you know that I couldn't

turn my back on you,

Yet;

You still play with my feelings like I am a toy,



The night falls once more;

And here I am still stuck at these crossroads,

With a long road behind me,

And a long road in front of me,



The questions have now become;

Where do I turn?

Do I move forward?

Do I turn back?

The road will never be clear

until I get an answer from you.