I get close to finishing some proof
And another unfurnished room grabs me
Life-long habit I can’t pray away
There’s no maybe to it, it’s proven
I’m bound to do it, over and over
Bringing me lower, lower
No four leaf clovers for me
Wringing out pain, ignoring doors open
Broken by life, obsessed with strife
The brightest light couldn’t make me shine
Wouldn’t want to do this without a price
Bobbing my head to the tune
Robbing my destiny before it’s true
I knew it was a lie, chose not to fight
Didn’t want to be proven wrong or right
Some part wants this blight
To see if I can survive the flight
To it’s bitter end, bending instead of break
Heart’s aching, not faking, sick of taking
Pretending I’m making something worth making
I’m forsaken, by my own making
Lately things have been shaky
Distractions are breaking me
Raking away the hard work
Taking what I know is mine
Pretending it’s all fine
At the end of the day, past praying
I’m just waiting to be laid to rest
Holding things too close to the chest
Poverty is just a test, earning a place to rest
Learning race has elements at play
Lunch trays aren’t ever filled enough
To show we really love our countrymen
How do you build trust
While our homes turn to rust, plus
Bombs are the only bone we thrust
Into the hand of enemies
Turning their hate into lust for our demise
How the hell do we rise from the ashes
While the system feeds us more lashes
Facism isn’t the answer but at least it has a plan
Democracy lands us at the crossroads
Putting the loads on our backs, no tracks
The fast path is so attractive
(Is that why we are so reactive, instead of laughing)
I’m forsaken, by my own making
Lately things have been shaky
Distractions are breaking me
Raking away the hard work
Taking what I know is mine
Pretending it’s all fine
At the end of the day, past praying
I’m just waiting to be laid to rest
Trading online activism for rational action
The actual path to change the present from the past
But our attention spans never last
Rash when we pick which person to lambast
If only we spent half as much time learning
Who deserves to be cast out
We’ll be lucky to earn enough to lash out
Meanwhile we’re fucked, trash tossed away
Lost to unrelated pain, main road’ll never be paved
Labeled a mental case, trying to be brave
Hate can never be made positive, it’s the opposite
Opposed to ever trading it for love, treasure trove coasted
Lever’s been pulled, clever lie lulled us to sleep
(With nothing positive to reap)
I’m forsaken, by my own making
Lately things have been shaky
Distractions are breaking me
Raking away the hard work
Taking what I know is mine
Pretending it’s all fine
At the end of the day, past praying
I’m just waiting to be laid to rest
About the Creator
Garrett Beylerian
I'm a 25 year old bisexual guy, diagnosed with ADHD, ODD, GMD at the age of 3. Since 13 I've struggled with depression. I've had a desire to share my experiences and the opinions I've developed in a lifetime of fighting poverty.
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Stage of Life
Stages of life you came as a baby you might have a mom and dad that love you very much that took care of you the best way they can they make sure you go to school you'll learn so that way you could continue to keep going in that stage if we have one parent that die and part of your early stage you will impact you for the rest of your life especially if that parent was a nurturing type I hug you tell you that he or she love you that give you gifts because that's the first set of love in your life another stage is high school you make friends that will stay in your life for a long time sometimes they may move to different part you know of the world or the country and whenever you get together with those type of friends it's like you were never separated because these friends they make such impact in your life especially when you're about to graduate high school you might go into the same career as your friend because you wanna go to the same college because these are the people you spend the most time with so they definitely influence your life in high school you might learn things that you like such as cosmetology or to culture photography and so on and so on these are the habit that you might continue later on in stage when you want to feel good when you want to relax because you learn these very early on and they are there as a basic again in high school if we have a major change so just moving to another state that might also impact part of your career if you are the oldest in your family each of these stage are also very important because when you heist when you're in high school dipping on the family you might be the one that help with the other samplings and you are the one that the parents count on to bring the family to the next level.
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