Deliberate Heart

I accept you for who you are,

To me you’re worth more than a shooting a star.

You push people away because you’re scared of being hurt .

But I understand your pain,look underneath my skirt.

I don’t go through what you do on the daily bases.

I know it gets hard everyone’s life is at different paces .

It’s always good to be thankful of what offers can offer regardless of how little it may be..

Be grateful and think wow at least they thought about me .

I know you’re hurting and trying not let anyone disturb your peace .

But don’t create friction because your trust is deceased.

We all crave attention but too much causes another person tension .

You can love someone so much you push them away.

How can I convey…

Imagine playing a game with the same approach …

Or receiving advice from the wrong life coach .

Being to consumed into things you can’t change …

Something you don’t approve you reject it or call it strange .

Think about the other lives this might effect?

My feelings ,my own hurt because of childhood neglect .

How do I stop the cycle of not being felt good enough to deserve certain things .

But others get what they want freely ,yet still ungrateful,I can’t and it stings .

I sometimes wish you could see it through my eyes .

Everyone hurts everyone cries .

One closed mind won’t fix any problems from within .

If rejecting others was a sin

Everyone would be sitting in the devils trash bin.

I contemplate everything I say and do .

My actions, the things I say ,because I think about others too.

I’m not saying I’m someone’s funnel cake with strawberries on top

But when you’ve pushed me over the edge .

I feel like I’m sitting in the middle of traffic while listening to rice crispies pop.

All I want is the hurt to stop .

You can corrupt you life and push others away but deep down .

You’re hurting from something deeper than earths ground .you’re not about to say .

I seek help by writing it in poetry .

But you have to figure out what helps you defeat what’s inside of me .

Always remember that we say things we don’t mean when we push people away .

Deep down you’re begging for reassurance and praying that they’ll stay .