Death Is An Undefeated Opponent

It brings much sadness

Another friend gone

I hear about someone's death so frequently, anymore

A family member, someone from social media

The nice lady at our gym

One of my favorite musicians

It didn't use to be like this

Time moves on

I realize that fact

Just because I understand it doesn't mean I accept it

I worry about myself

I worry about my Bride

I worry about our dog

I worry for our kids

I worry

Every odd random pain

They happen all the time now

I shouldn't eat the things I eat

I shouldn't drink the things I drink

Life is a balance, deprivation, boring

Am I halfway to the end?

Two thirds? A week away?

Death has never lost, not even once

I've outgrown religion

A conscious afterlife seems unlikely

I'm brought to tears thinking I'll never see my children again

That I won't be able to watch them from elsewhere

I'm too logical to think there's more after this

I hate the thought of death closing in

I love living

I love to laugh

I love my family and the joy we share daily

I must focus on making the most of the time we have

Still, I am scared