Death is All We Ever Earn

It’s not subtle

As much as they protest

This feeling of death

That slices up my chest

It takes my ears for a ride

I am told to open wide

Stop the delay

And listen here,

“if you don’t come… you’re a queer!!”

Blood drooling from the nose

I learned to fear the word,

too long ago to know

I can’t stand their anticipated hate

They wait and wait,

until I’m about to faint

Until I unleash what I try to stow

Close to death

Or vulnerable alike

I hold back my demons

With all my might

They giggle

Just as the sun can scorch your eyes

The longer I hear it

The less I feel alive

I want them to stop

Meddling with my ears

Threatening to call me

that fucking sneer

Leave me alone

I can only conjure

Vibrating rage

They hush so that it goes longer

They watch without mercy

With those eyes

As I boil

In my own demise

I hate them for this

More than they can ever know

I throw myself

At their crooked throats

They scream

For once not at me

and I get power

that I thrust upon thee

Still past a boil

nothing wains

I want them gone

For their life to be drained

Fear in their eyes

Now I see mine

Looking desperately

to the sky

I question my hate

Maybe it’s wrong

I let go

I move along

They of course never learn

I continue to burn

But I wonder

If death is all we ever earn